Jolene (marjolaine.multiply.com)

Just visit & say hi if u're free... Nothing much there but there's something at times.

*Yawn* I think I'm aging real fast due to late nights. Past few days, my energy was drained out as I used most of my energy in making curry puffs for them. My thumb was almost bruised because of strenous pressing and folding. We went for the school's bingo night and came back at 10.30pm.. was dead tired. Knocked out early so I didn't blog.

Read Sheena-dear's blog about being the only child...leading to her own life as a single child with divorced parents. WEll,I knew her since Jc life and did meet her mum on a few occasions. I know what she's trying to relate though I don't live a life of a broken home. My family is rather wholesome, good or rather I'd say me and my brother live a quite comfortable life. From a 3-room flat in Ang Mo Kio, we shifted to an Executive flat in Hougang when I was about 9 yrs old, then my brother was borned when I was 12 and throughout my younger days, I'd always have a maid to take care of me. When I was at a tender age and attending K1 & K2, I was with a baby-sitter who spoilt me to the core, BUT has also caused deterioration to my health. She was loving me TOO much that she gave me ice-cream almost everyday. Not one, but many. For your information, why it was bad for me was because I was an asthmatic child and it was a serious case. I couldn't breathe properly almost every night, waking up to a string of coughs,vomits & heaving pants. I would go "heeeeeeeeee.......heeee.............. " (that was the wheezing sound made when I couldn't breathe properly) My lungs would feel like a punctured balloon...I'd gasp for air but I don't seem to get any. Anyway,back to my nanny. She was very nice, from what I remember. She had 3 daughters who doted on me as well. My nanny nearly caused me to have a kissing fish's mouth as well (i do have too much of a pout now already..luckily,my mum stopped it from forming on time). Why do I say so? Mum told me my nanny spoilt me by giving me a abundant supply of pacifiers. Yeah...ABUNDAnt. According to mum, they were in a STRINg. ONe after another. If I sucked this and dropped it, I'll simply have to pick up another that is nearer to my mouth and never have to cry. -_-" I know my nanny doted on me, but that nearly disfigured me. Haha..I am already finding my mouth way too ugly cuz it's protruding, not in conjuction with my whole face as I have a relatively flat face.

Anyway, continuing with my life. At the age of 15, my family shifted house again. This time, we shifted to a 4 room flat. Don't be mistaken. We're not downgrading. That was a rented flat which we had to live in for 2 years before our condominium (which was situated nearby) will be completely built. Yes, and till now we're still having it as our home.

As my parents were the thrifty type, I don't really get free-flowing money to spend though. And I was very independant since young. I was the only child for 11 years, before my brother came along. I think I agree with Sheena's friend, that being the only child, we get all the attention from our parents...but on the other hand, I don't agree that we get EVERYthing. I still vividly remember that I DONT't get several barbie dolls that I had wanted when I was very young. I had badly wanted 1 or 2 but I didn't get it. I was lucky enough to get a few tight slaps when I had cried for it. Even when I was slightly older, I didn't get everything that I had wanted. OUt of 100%, I think I'd only gotten 20% of my requestS. That's why I became quite independant. Before that, I was already trained to take a bus from Hougang to AMk at 5+am to my school. That was when I was 9 yr old. I had no maid at that moment so I had to depend on myself to go to school. I wasn't afraid, I wasn't the least bit worried. Independancy was simply in me. I'd also learnt how to cook for myself and my family. Fried eggs, fried rice or whatever. Then, at 10 I started doing house chores before going over to my aunt's house,which was 10 min walk away,for lunch. At 11+, I was helping Mum to take care of my new-born baby brother.

I'd have to say proudly that I'm really very independant. At 12, I had no $$$ to spend, so I managed to find a K1 student to teach. Yeah! At the age of 12, I was already earning money.I taught him for 1 yr + before my parents found out about my side line and forbided me to continue. THere goes my extra income.

WEll, my independancy goes a long way, even till now. There are plenty of things I didn't get from my parents as a single child OR as an oldest child in the family. In fact, I was expected to give mORE.

I'm no longer a single child, but my parents still freaking give me curfews. Yes. EVEN NOW. That really pisses me off. Mths ago, my mum told me about the curfew thingy once we will be in Singapore. When I kept quiet, she knew I wasn't happy but commented. "You think Singapore very safe meh? Huh? U mean U want to go out till 11,12 o'clock???" Fuck la...if Singapore really wasn't that safe, then we'll be like in Australia whereby the streets will be desolated by 5pm. All shops will be closed, everyone will be hiding at home in fear of murderers, pickpockets, robbers & kidnappers. MY god. I'm now 21 yrs old!!! But she's still treating me as a 5 yr old kid. She should jolly well know how independant I am & I'll know how to take care of myself. But fuck. I know whatever I say will be useless. That's my mum.

After having a younger brother, my burden is heavier. I AM NOW a bIGGER SISTER u know.... yeah....... My job is to TEACH HIM. GUIDE HIM. GIVE in to HIM. TAKE care of him. AND BY THE WAY, i know the difference being the eldest in the family & A girl. HE's the youngest & A BOY. Though they always say, " You know we love both of you. We don't love him more just because he's a boy." Bullshit.

Then why don't I have my fav barbie when he can have his GAMEBOY & GAMEBOY advanced NEh? Then why last time everytime I get low marks for exams I get whaCking whereas when he only get naggings? WHY laSt time I can't go out to plaY when he can go outside to plAY wif his frens? WHy they give in to him almost everytime when he starts crying BUT when I cried,I only got MORE whacking??? There's more "why(s)" but it'd be a waste of time to list them all out.

Anyway, it's a fact though they denied it. But well...it's not that they don't love me,but it's just that I know that I'm a "grade" lower than my bro. Yeah..

Back to topic, I think being the only child has its pros and cons.. that goes for being the one of the many child in the family. Dear Sheena's case? I'd say... it's a bad one..but then,at the end of the day, dear Sheena grows to be more matured than any other person at her age. It also made her know what she wants for her future...like her marriage with kids & all... Right Sheena? Anyway my dear... you have the freedom I'd kill for... So you r actually luckier than me leh...What's worst than being captivated in a cage like a helpless little sparrow with nothing to see but the bars around it & nothing to do but to chirp & hop around in that small little space??? Nothing. =)

*hugs*

I think my freedom will come only after I get married & have my own kids...cuz by then, my parents will be too old & senile to bother about me. (oops..Sorry but I wasn't cursing my own parents...It's just a fact. :P )

Kk... dun wanna go on rattling~ I missed working out for 2 nights & I feel so guilty. Must do it tonight. Hmm.. I can really feel myself letting go of my past. Or rather, my Ex. The fact that he came back & lied to me made me stronger. Yeah... (plays the song "Stronger" by Britney Spears in head) I mean it. WEll,I DID got affected after he came back, & was quite troubled,but when I found out his sneaKy plOT, the fact was made even clearer: He is a junk. A junk that is not worthy of keeps. A junk that never learns its lesson. A junk that is worse than a beast. A junk that will never make it far in life. Keke....I'm not angry okie... haha...I'm just stating the mere facts~ Haha...I had already "thrown" him away like my nose wax. Flick* flick* Muahaha...

I'm actually glad that I "recovered" so quickly. This is a good sign cuz this shows that I'm letting go~ Or maybe learning how to. =) Anyway, I have more impt things to think of.. like.....CNy & my face's future. LOlz. looking forward to it man.....but it's so damn long... -_-" Haha....kk...gtg...Ciao peepz.

Damn lazy to blog...esp when no one's interested to read anyway.... I'm not like XiaXue eh? LoLz.. I dun have a good command of English OR a great sense of humOUR....so.....aiyAh...i know myseLf...so i shldn't expect pple to be coming in to read what the fuck i write. ;P


A few hours ago,I smelt like a curry puff,felt like a curry puff. Why? Because I joined the 'aunties' (of course including my mum...) to make curry puffs for the school event tomorrow. Didn't really 'make' the curry puffs yet...we only made the skin & the cooked the filling.Tomorrow is part 2.A great achievement today... we made skin for 400+ curry puffs!!! Yeah..worth smeLLing like a BIG CURRy puFF. duh...

Anyway,it was a 'fruitful' day with all the aunties...Starting from the oldest; MY MUM, aunty Josephine, aunty Catherine, aunty Jean, aunty Tre,aunty Merilyn, aunty Anna, aunty Saras, aunty Betty & ,..........ME.

We had a good time 'rubbing-in','kneading','chopping' & 'measuring' while chit-chatting away. Well, in fact we also had 'singing & dancing' mostly by AuntY Tre...Lolz...she was the fire of the party. Haha...very funny...she's really an entertainer~ I bet all of us had a good time laughing today.

We had relived the times of the whatever century, 50s,60s,70s even the 80s... plus hokkien,cantonese & teochew songs~ Yeah........dun douBt...i also joined in..Haha..one of the main lead vocalS~ haha... =P

Anyway...was quite cool to hang ard with them.. Didn't know hangin ard with aunties can be quite enjoyable too. But depends la...only 'happening' aunties... yeah..learnt many things la...

Was shopping at Archachon last Friday... didn't buy ANYTHING... sob*** Cannot...muz tahan...i need to save $$$ for my face...my everything....

kk...wanna eat my dinner now..fucking hungry.
Btw, the first photo was what i saw when i was shopping in Archachon..damn ugly..... or perhaps i didnt know how to appreciate fine 'arts'?
I bought these 2 packets of thingy for my "autograph" book...hee..gosh...made myself sound like a primary school kid.. =P But they're cute k...... & freaking ex.

Design


--brand new
-black with pink prints
- Europe size S but I'd reckon it's a SmallMedium.
-quite stretchable
-100% cotton
-Made in 'Coree Sud'(a ctry's name in French)
-imported from France

Price not inclusive of postage ( $1 - $3)

Design

. 1. Authentic MNG brand.
2. Comes with the MNG tag.
3. US size Small
4. Circumference: 64cm (stretchable), Length: 35cm
5. 69% Cotton, 31% Polyamide (similar to knitted material/lycra. But not the same.)
6. There's an elastic band inside the tube for non-slipping purpose.
7. New

Price does not include postage fees varying between $1 - $3

Design

1.Size 36 (Us 4)
2.New
3.Imported from France

Price not inclusive of postage varying btw $1 - $3

Design


Measurements for bikini top:
-Cup is 5.5 x 5 x 5.5
-String length bottom-17 inches
-String length halter- 19 inches approx
-Size: Us 4, Eur 36,84A

Measurements for bikini bottom:
-top to bottom (centre): 10 inches approx
-waistline: 27 inches approx
-Backside(midway of bottom-back):10 inches
-waist band(side): 1 inch
-Size: US 4, Eur 38

Price does not include postage from France which varies between $3 - $7

Lolz...yeah...this is my "virgin" entry in MuLtipLy.After spending lots of time juz to upload some pics, I finally decided to put in an entry as well. I'm lazy to blog new things...so I'll juz copy & paste today's entry of my blogsite~~~

As usual, I always have nothing to do..So I was pondering about friendship. It seems such a simple word,but we often underestimate its meaning. A simple word like ,'Friends' can lead to a web of thoughts. Anyway, let's have a look at the definition of 'Friends' although I'm sure all of you would know what it means... ;)

Main Entry: 1friend
Pronunciation: 'frend
Function: noun
Etymology: Middle English frend, from Old English frEond; akin to Old High German friunt friend, Old English frEon to love, frEo free
1 a : one attached to another by affection or esteem b : ACQUAINTANCE
2 a : one that is not hostile b : one that is of the same nation, party, or group
3 : one that favors or promotes something (as a charity)
4 : a favored companion
5 capitalized : a member of a Christian sect that stresses Inner Light, rejects sacraments and an ordained ministry, and opposes war -- called also Quaker
- friend·less /'fren(d)-l&s/ adjective
- friend·less·ness noun
- be friends with : to have a friendship or friendly relationship with
- make friends with : to establish a friendship or friendly relations with
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And words bounded by it;
Entry Word: friend
Function: noun
Text: a person with whom one is on good and, usually, familiar terms
Synonyms acquaintance, amigo, cater-cousin, confidant, familiar, intimate, mate; compare ASSOCIATE 3
Related Word alter ego, best friend, bosom friend; ally, colleague, partner; nodding acquaintance
Contrasted Words enemy; adversary, antagonist, opponent; competitor, rival
Antonyms foe
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Personally, I take a friend as the above meaning (1) & (4). Or rather, would prefer to call him/her as my confidant or bosom friend.If any shallower, I don't consider as my true friends, like how people like to name them as "hi-bye friends".
I don't know when did I start to "pick" my friends..I wasn't like this back in Singapore. To me, everyone was my friend but there can only be a few close to my heart. Now, if I don't like that "friend", I can real hostile or rather not my usual self,I'd say. It's kinda obvious because I'm usually quite out-spoken, noisy, rowdy, cheeky,laid back as I'll be comfortable with who I'm with. But when I'm with who I don't really like, I'll shrink back into my shell, acting like a hermit. I won't be the 'Jolene' my close friends know me as.

Before I came here, I'm not like what I am now..It's a drastic change. Now, I feel threatened in my friendships with others. Well, I don't wanna elaborate on that but I do feel it. It makes me lose faith in my friendships. I'm getting on the edge at times. But, most of the time I still try to shrug things off and ignore whatever I feel or see. I'll just tell myself :" Well, that's life. Sometimes you have it, sometimes you don't. You don't own anyone. Everyone's free to go,you know. If you're meant to be without friends, so be it."

So I'm still quite nonchalent about things ongoing around me. Like the song Que Sera Sera,it goes.." Whatever will be, will be..."

I was just surfing some things sent by some humour company...and I stumbled upon BUTTs~ I tried the quiz and got 10/16 Haha...not bad liao lar... U go try it if u're bored.. http://www.funnyforwards.net/newsletter/0120.html#

I'll be going swimming tomorrow.I have to.I've got to.Haha. I can't stand being FAT. Lolz... But after a few consecutive nights of pathetic exercises , I felt toner but not up to standard YET. Yeah... These few nights, I'd been using my simple machine 'ABs stretch',doing up to 50-70 "stretches", 10 side-crunches each, 10 normal crunches,10 butt-raise crunches,20 side elbow-knees crunches,leg raise, 20 squats & stretching. Yeah...Haha...sounds easy eh? Easy as 1-2-3, A-B-C but then...to me, it's freaking difficult!!! Hey...Being a lump of fats is not so mobile k...Anyway,I'll strive harder!!! With the help of my 'green tea pills' aid, low fat Kellogs cereal, swimming and nightly exercises, I'm sure I can be toner in a few weeks months time. "Endeavor,endeavor Jolene.........."

Just got my appointment with the dermatologist. By March, I'll be having a porcelain complexion I'd been dreaming of!!! But I'll also be as poor as a church mouse. Haha... But what to do?!?!..... No "pain" no gain..